There're many problems around me.To find the way, I must solve them one after another,again and again.Sometime,There's a voice.It say to me:"Hey,Don't care about that,It will make you feel better."Sometime,There's another voice.It says:"Keep doing what you must do, only the faintheart will choose giving up!" They're just like the two different surfaces of a coin.Actually,I konw that both of them are the shape of my heart.I can let them under my contrl.So they aren't the thing  what make me feel so tired.I feel that there isn't any one who really understand me, understand what I say,what I mean,what I wanna do,what's the hell happened on me.That feeling is like a swamp which feaze me.

  To get rid of that.Maybe there's an answer.Maybe I know the answer.But I can guess that the process must be painful.In fact I can't take it. I want to see the sun without stand the darkness.It's so interesting,isn't it?I think most of people have the same idea.That's why the number of perosn who is successful  is always less than the person who is ordinary.Now the first business I wanna do is RUN AWAY.I wanna run away,I wanna get the freedom,I wanna get the meaning of my life.

  Person is born with duty.Everyone should do his own business.Nobody can help him.Up to the present I was 19 years old.The day before yesterday,a friend asked me:"Do you have done any thing which let you feel the feeling of achievement?"I couldn't reply.At that time,I was at a loss.Did I do something success?Something really be regarded as a good job.I can't find it.If there's an angel,please take my hand and lead me to the bright place.My Lord, If I did some offense,please forgive me. 

                                                                                                            Amen......

      阳春3月,合风轻舞,阳光明媚.古人说:"春眠不觉晓."原本应该睡个大头觉,可是今天,开学一周后的第一个星期六,不到八点,我就从床上坐了起来.一时间不知道是该起来还是继续一头栽倒在床,在镜子里看到不加修饰的自己,诶~~有一种不错的感觉,脸色不错,特别是有一点点阳光反射的情况下,虽然不是白里透红,不过却给我自己冲满活力的感觉.

      没刷牙,没洗脸.打开窗户,看看窗外的景色.一阵风吹来,有点冷,却吹走了我最后一点睡意.俯视眼前这一片我最熟悉又陌生的画面,我感到十分满足.深绿的树丛中,透出几点新绿;原本脱光的灌木上又长出了新芽,小鸟在其间穿梭,用最直接的身体语言向我转告这春天的到来.羡慕它们如此自由之余心中感到一阵莫名的冲动.

      洗漱完闭,早饭都没吃就破不急待的来到楼下,闲庭信步.看着在马路上来来往往的车辆,看着这么早就开始忙碌的人们,深深体验到了我们这个城市的活力.第一次为自己活在这个冲满阳光的城市里而感到庆幸.对未来一直有点疑惑的我,好像又再一次明白了那个我早就明白的道理----"当你觉得迷惘时,当你觉得迷失方向时,要找回方向其实很简单,只要问自己的内心深处到底想怎么样,回到生活的原点,这样很简单就能看到眼前的路了."很久以前,一个朋友对我说了这些话.我当时就明白了,但时常在迷失的时候却无法记起.

     在我这个过渡期的人也许都会有和我一样的问题.明明目标就在前方,明明要走的路就在脚下,却故意蒙蔽住自己的双眼,欺骗自己,告诉自己在人生中迷失.时间光阴不会等待迷失的人,地下铁的列车不会等待那些在地铁站里迷路的可怜虫.所以不想当可怜虫的,就不要在欺骗自己,不要在蒙蔽自己的双眼,结实的踏下向前的脚步,Don't stop,Keep walking...往那冲满阳光的地方.朋友,如果在那个地方和你相遇,That's what I want to see...